||[Mar. 24th, 2010|03:47 am]
Here is a weird thing. It had been over six months since I had drawn a comic book page. If you think about it, drawing comic books is my JOB. That is a lot of time off doing what I'm supposed to be doing. |
Okay so that is wicked sad and kind of fucking depressing if you want to dwell on it, so lets not.
...I mean. You can. Its just that I'd rather not. It's kind of sad, so... you know, lets get onto something else.
I AM actually working on a new comic. It has been quite a long road to get to where it is now, and it will be a longer road before you will be able to see anything of it, but it totally will be out this year (of which there is still 3/4 left).
Anyway, something I wanted to stop and talk to you about was some of recent work. Namely the 6 issues of Brit (available in trade paperback!) I did. I have been flipping through this stuff, and normally, looking at your old work is kind of super awful. You look at it and see all the mistakes you made and they stick out like a sore thumb so that is all you really see basically. Most of the time this is completely awful and really super shitty.
You look at it and can't believe you were so dumb that you actually thought that what you did was in any way a good idea. Also you feel bad for everyone who ever paid money to look at it (did I mention it is available in trade paperback?!). It is normally a pretty bad time. You sit there and mope and feel bad about yourself and get mad at how horrible you are and why can't you be better.
BUT THIS TIME, for whatever reason, I felt SUPER AWESOME.
It was like looking at the art of some kind of amateurish chump-ass. I was all like "PSHHH, look at this garbage, he should had totally put the head over here and made this figure bigger and pushed this figure in the BG and added more perspective." This is a good thing. This means you have grown as an artist. Since I haven't really drawn very much since then I think it more has to do with how much I have seen in better artists' work and how poorly my work compares to them. Lots of stylistic flares and techniques I can't wait to incorporate into my own work and things like that.
Oh man, the most obvious thing is looking at the drawings themselves and seeing how shitty and craptacular they are. Like composition and anatomywise. God how could I have been so dumb a mere year ago. But that is the best part! Seriously! When you can see those things it means you are the master over your past stupid-ass self! Like you could lean over your past-own shoulder and give yourself tips and pointers on how to be less of a suck-fuck.
It is a rare occasion to get this kind of feeling when looking at your own work, but if you get it, CHERISH IT! Its totally like leveling up! You have surpassed your former self! Don't bum out about how shitty you used to be, high five yourself for how AWESOME you're going to be when you outdo your former self! Also high five your FUTURE self for looking back at your current self and recognizing how much of a fuckup douchebag you are right this second!
Okay. I just wanted to impart this moment of clarity to all you you who might still slow down as your scrolling over your friends' page when you see posts by me, whether they have images posted or not. There is hope! Its at the end of the rainbow that you reach and forget that rainbows don't actually have ends so you just hang out and chill for a minute there anyways.
lol @ first brit pages I drew.